I’m an odd in that I develop crushes easily and they either stick or fade. I had a crush like this on Incubus. I nursed it along until I had to say something. I knew something about him was perfect for me. But, this is not about him. It’s about her.
I had seen her around last year, I suspected she belonged to Incubus. I wanted them. But, I figured they wouldn’t take me. I get a bad wrap because I’m a pro Domme or because I’m a true Sswitch.
The other day we were all together for the first time. At first I was worried she’d hate me, Incubus told her I was his. Then, confirmed that they had been/still were together. I was surprisingly happier about this. We could all be “family”
Now, babykat.
Like me babykat is younger, so things which horrify older BDSMers make her eager. She is intriguing to me. She has mercury-drop eyes, pinprick heart and more. The things she wants me to do the spaces I can take her require a commitment. Mostly because I will hurt what is mine because they are mine. I want to carve into her flesh.
Make her mine.
It’s selfish I’m aware. I’m in that weird in between with Ivi. I’m with carys, and princess…I’m with them and they are mine but they are not mine. I have to blindly share and it hurts a little inside. Babykat makes me feel loved and important to her always. The same way Incubus does.
I know..I’m bad.
Multiple collars have never bothered me, its the way some people pass out their ownership like it was candy. I love everyone I consider mine.Perhaps, deeper than I should. My ownership is not candy. My ownership is warmth and knowing you always have a home. My ownership is knowing I’m going to hurt you and rip you apart and put you back together.