This promises to be the best entry Lola Batling (Thatʻs me!) has ever made.
Today, Amanda Palmer said goodbye to her overlords at RoadRunner Records. She gave us all a free song! That both rocked and got me thinking.
the lyrics are in italics are NOT mine and you can check out Amanda more here.
“and i have already spent too much time
doing things i didn’t want to
so if i just want to make out all the time
you can bet your black ass that i’m going to”
I hate to admit it but, sometime after high school I decided this: You only live once, Iʻd rather regret the things I had done then the things I hadnʻt. So, my life is spent mostly doing things I want to do. Yes, my submissive clients may not choose me because I have some Iʻm submissive too. But, fuck them. The ones that do choose me get an authentic BDSM experience from a real girl.
People may not like me because Iʻm poly. But, at least I can love fully and totally. Point is, I like my life and Amanda Palmer put it into better words then I could.
The blowjob queen part also applies to me. I have become more selective in whoʻs genitals I want in my mouth.
Also, I too like sharing my gift with the world. Hence my forays into professional smut peddling!
Umeʻs been away. This does make me miss him. But, absence does make the heart grow fonder. It means when he comes home to me, Iʻll be extra happy. This time has made me realize just how much Umeʻs got me on track. Before I was this force like water and yeah, people noticed me Iʻd worn away some pebbles. Under Umeʻs careful guidance Iʻm now flowing freely and mountains have no chance.
This is one of the reasons Ume is so my punkrockloveman. “darlin your Daddy is a punk rock kid, he grew up reading and making zines using recycled clip art and photocopy machines.” When I told him about my new zine project. Pushing Pixel. I love that he didnʻt blink. It stunned me and made fall just a little more.
It made me think about letting him inside of me. In a way that no one has been, not even Jak. You see, I have an erotic hypnosis fetish and, I want to be hypnotized. I want him to truly fine tune me as it were. I want to let him have that kind of control.
I want to literally hand him the key to my complete enslavement. Because, you see Iʻd have to teach Ume how to hypnotize me. Iʻd teach him how to press my biggest, reddest, button. I keep holding back telling him this. Iʻm fairly certain he would.
Then Iʻd listen.
Iʻd be Umeʻs doll.